Nothing sucks more than eating the worst tasting health food frozen meal while someone sits across from you eating fresh Chinese food
I pretty much ate nothing but crap today and I can feel it. I feel so blegh
I know I’ve written posts hating on things my boyfriend has done in the recent past. I was hurt by what he did and it still bothers me. But… On the other hand, at this moment in time, I could not be happier. About two months ago, I guess something finally made sense about all the arguments we’d been having. The flirting with other girls has completely stopped. No more texts. No more Facebook messages. No more skype. We’ve started talking more and spending more time together. In fact there’s been a lot more flirting WITH ME…IN PUBLIC than even when we first started dating. It feels like we’re back in that honeymoon phase of our relationship but it’s better than the first time.
At the same time, honeymoons don’t last. I keep thinking, what if this is just his way of getting me to shut up about our issues? What if he’s just pretending until he figures out the best way for him to leave the relationship? Am I being naive to think that he’s really changed?
All that time he was flirting with other girls really messed me up and hurt my ability to trust him. I’m scared that things will go back to the way they were.
….But I’m truly hoping that there was a genuine change and that all this is for real.
I want a police job. I can legitimately say that’s what I’ve wanted to be since I was a kid….but I can’t. I can’t pass the physical test.
I need to work out more to get in better shape. However, I have two jobs that take up a lot of my time. It’s hard to get a workout and meal prep in and still get any sleep. I never have the energy to do anything when I get home. If I worked less at my second job so I can go to the gym more, I won’t have the money to pay bills.
I feel stuck in an endless battle of finding time and budgeting money. I hate that I can’t get ahead. I hate that I can’t find a job that can take care of all my bills comfortably. I just feel stuck
I’m really excited. Today will be my second day back at crossfit full time. Really hoping life doesn’t get in the way of this.
There’s so much I feel like I haven’t been diligent about doing. I haven’t been eating the way I should, drinking enough water, or exercising. After eight months of working two jobs, I’m physically and mentally exhausted. I don’t feel like I can function anymore. The stress has even started affecting my body. Four periods in two months isn’t exactly healthy. Since July, I’m ashamed to say that I’ve gained 10 pounds. You know what the doctor told me? Try to remove some of the stress, eat better, and exercise. Really? Could’ve told you that.
So that’s the plan. Starting on Monday, I’m going back to my gym. Regardless of how tight money is or how tired I am, I have to find a way to make myself healthier. It’ll definitely make me happier and hopefully it’ll do some real good for my health and weight. By Christmas, I want to lose those pounds I gained
The other thing I really need to work on is finding a better job. I’ve been so lazy about this part. Finding one job that replaces my two would greatly improve my situation. Biggest problem is the fact that Americas government is highly dysfunctional right now and my degree is in criminal justice. There really aren’t too many positions open for that degree that aren’t with the government.
Here’s hoping things get better before my body overloads
My doctor changed my birth control to help fix some issues… So far im debating whether the change in hormone levels is a good thing or not.
Before I was having multiple cycles in a month
Now… Second day on this and I’ve already locked my keys in my car, have a complete lack of coordination, and got to work before I realized that I forgot to put on a bra